Delete

A/N: This is almost a poem, but not quite. It's almost a stream of consciousness, but not quite. I like it, so I thought I'd share. It came about when I was failing in a poetry attempt.

Delete

My fingers hover on the key
Itching to delete.
Destroy these words I've put here
Erase the things I've written.
No one cares or wants to know
So why bother to keep them?
Delete these words that make no difference
The things that make me sad.
Remove the things that make me angry;
I won't be jealous or lonely anymore.
With just one keystroke...
Wipe it all away.

But that would be too simple, right?
I'd never learn or grow.
Is this life of mine worth living
if I forget all that I am?
So I won't press that key.
I won't destroy these words.
I'll retrace my steps and shape them.
Work to mold them into something more.
I'll have to strive...

Wouldn't it be something,
If our world had that key?
With one simple little motion,
We could delete so many things.
We could forget about the anger...
And we could stop the wars
We could put a halt on violence
and love each other as we should.
What if, with just one keystroke,
We could wipe it all away?

But that would be too simple, right?
We'd never learn or grow.
We've only got one world, my friends.
We've only got one chance to do this right.
We've got a Kingdom to build here.
And we've got to work to make it happen.
We have to strive.

~

First Children's class this Wednesday! Wish me luck!

~God Bless
Cassandra

i am a happy me

i am a happy me


i am a happy me
and sometimes it's not so easy
to be happy
when all the others just don't see

i am happy that you are you
no matter what you try to do
oh man, if only you knew
just how much i really love you

the life we have is just so great
that i really can't wait
for all the pain to abate
so we can get the good stuff straight

we can do some awesome things, my friend
but with all these problems we've got to mend
it's kind of hard to comprehend
what the world will look like in the end

~

God bless,
Cassandra

Orientation

I'll be in a new building for highschool this year. I've spent a lot of time in the building, so it's not REALLY new, but I went to the orientation today anyway.

I was sort of looking forward to it. I've changed a lot this summer and haven't had a chance to talk to several friends since the end of last semester. I was excited to see the people in my class with..."new eyes" I suppose.

But as soon as I got there and my peers started to show up, I wanted nothing more than to be anywhere except there. I was fairly desperate to get away; having trouble breathing. I've always had trouble in crowds, but this was different. It was not quite painful, just...I can't even explain. It felt like there was unbearable pressure on my chest and abdomen. I lost count of how many times I said "Remover of Difficulties" today.

I don't really know what the point of this post is. I hope I feel better on Monday, getting into the routine.

~God bless,
Cassandra

I'm not lazy, just busy.

So. It's been an interesting summer.

For the first month or so I went to work for my dad. It was very...interesting. I did things like:

Wired a new shed on a chicken farm.
Slogged through crude oil all day in 100+ heat.
Walked on many roofs.
Climbed many ladders.
Ran conduit in a Food Pride grocery store.
Fixed a well.
Delivered more conduit about 250 miles from my home.
Pulled thick Metal-clad cable through a 200' attic space.
Installed a new outlet in a "cat lady's" house.

The list could go on for awhile. Instead of boring you with that...

The next three weeks of my summer were spent in Indianapolis, Indiana with my extended family. I have pictures!

This is my uncle Jeff. I stayed with him, my aunt Dawn, and their six kids. He's in "business mode" here.

My cousin Becca is thirteen. My cousin Amber is nine. Amber is the spitting image of me six years ago. It's kind of creepy. But I love these girls so much! :)


Come on. Who doesn't want to see the Hard Rock Cafe?


Here's a blurry picture of one of my paintings. I picked up painting about six months ago, maybe a little less. This is my uncle's guitar.


I enjoy this picture a lot. I'm riding in a convertible mustang here, taking a picture of the side-view mirror. Why does the sky in the mirror look bright and sunny, while around the car it looks pitch dark? Portal to another world, anyone?

Yesterday I just got home from my third and most exciting adventure of the summer. I went to the Great Plains Baha'i Summer School, then stayed in the Minneapolis/St. Paul area for two or three weeks. In that time, I completed three books in the Ruhi sequence, assisted in direct teaching in an IPG, saw a major-league baseball game, lived with two families, spent an evening with an awesome guy named Justin at a fair, and attended a weekend-long Animator Training intensive...It was crazy. It was amazing. Thank you Jen and Alicia and Laura and Joanne and...and...and everyone else!

I'll try not to be so infrequent about posting. Sorry. Have a nice year-start, everyone.